Merry Christmas No More....

Christmas is getting nearer and nearer. I can feel from the cold breeze of the wind. But everytime i'm going to sleep at night, i'm thinking, it's just going to be another white christmas...

Before when i was just a kid, i always make it to a point that i'll have everything when christmas comes up or even before it comes up. New clothes, toys, gadgets, everything that i want. For me, before, christmas is just full of gifts and materialistic things. I haven't thought before, it is not what the real true christmas spirit, that means sharing for all. For me, that's the real spirit.

I've grown up now, and i'm fully aware what's the spirit of christmas. What i lost is the excitement when christmas is within our grasp. Now, i never really get excited when it comes and i'll just said that it's just an ordinary day ahead of me. It's like, you realize some things when you mature while growing up. Me, i realized it now... For me, it's just going to be another white christmas ahead...

I've been away from my home for more than a year. And to tell you the truth, i have no plans of going back... forever... It's not pride what's eating up on me, it's just that i have something to prove on myself while i'm standing alone until i wear out. What i mean by wearing out is upto my very last breath of air, i'll go on with life --- alone. Well, maybe not alone, but, i'll not be in the family i grewn up. My girlfriend asks me, "When do you plan on going home?". Well, there are no plans on going back.. i just said, "Someday... and i don't know when it is... just someday...". This is the second year i'll not be spending the winter season holiday without them... And there's no big deal with that, right? Oh, well, that's life as it goes...

For me, Christmas is the most important holiday of the year and i expect anyone around the world doesn't want to miss it without their families. It's the season when you spend some quality time with your loved ones, as well as our friends and relatives. But for me, well, there's really nothing special. I might as well keep myself busy even if that special day comes. Just to forget all those miseries and problems that i've had in my life. Well, i'm not saying that i hate Christmas, it's just that... I really don't have anything to celebrate from the start, right?? That's just the way it is...

I don't know what will happen to me for the next years to come on my life. I may rust anyday, anytime, any minute running. My heart may stop beating in no time, but one thing's for sure, while i'm standing tall and strong, i'll just keep going on my life and live strong. But for me, it'll just be Merry Christmas no more...

Rotten Nation

Ahoy!! My very, very, very first entry for my blog. I'm at home right now resting. And this is my way of resting... Writing Blogs. I've been into blogging before but for some serious things that came upon me, it was sidelined for a while. But now, here i am, trying to go and write anything that comes in my mind.. Well, starting from the environment that i'm living now.

Rotten Nation. Why Rotten Nation?? Well, as what i've observed in the people of this place, it's kind of disgusting, in a way how others are taking advantage of their power. Hahaluan ko na ng Tagalog ha?? Hehehe... 'cause i love my country, that's why... what i mean by taking advantage? One time kasi i'm on my way home from cubao to luzon avenue. I rode a bus. When we reached Kamuning, there were seven traffic enforcers of the Metropolitan Manila Development Authority (Naks! buo pa talaga!) who rode the bus. I looked at the conductor's face... and he's not smiling at all. Why?? Dahil hindi pala magbabayad ang mga ungas na MMDA na yun. Sabit lang. Libre. Angkas. Haaaay, ang kakapal talaga ng mukha!!! And almost all of them are living in fairview, which would cost them 25 pesos each... Hayup!! Sabihin na nating lahat sila taga-fairview, ibig sabihin, 175pesos ang mawawala sa bus company. The amount might not be big in numbers, but if everyday they'll do it all over again, it's a very,very large amount! (Tamaan sana ng kidlat ang mga ulupong na yun na nagpapasarap na mga traffic enforcers na yan!) GOD Damn them!! They don't know that it's a huge loss for the company.. Kasi mas iniisip nila yung sarili nila.. Selfish rednecks!!!

I was sitting beside one of the traffic enforcers who hitched a ride on the bus. The conductor of the bus shouted at the driver, "Hanep ka ha! Pinakyaw mo lahat ha?" The driver did not replied back, 'cause i know what the driver is thinking. When the traffic enforcer beside me transferred to another seat, the conductor sat beside me and i talked to him. "Ano yun libre lahat yun?", i asked him. He answered, " Hindi naman namin ma-ticketan yang mga yan, kasi 'pag siningil namin yan dito, babawian kami nyan pagdating sa kanto ng EDSA-Kamuning, tapos titicketan kami na may violation kami, kahit wala.. Para gumanti lang..." You see, that's how rotten our nation is... It maybe just a simple matter, but, simple things are what matters most. Sa mga simpleng bagay nagsisimula ang mga malalaking problema na kinakaharap ng bansa natin ngayon. In the Conductor's situation, they're just doing give and take. They give and give and they take whatever those "evil minions" are giving them back. I asked the conductor why they don't report it to the company or to report it directly to MMDA, but he answered back with his face of lost hope. And then he said, "Wala namang ginagawang aksyon yang MMDA na yan... No use kung mag-uubos pa kami ng laway sa kanila, kami ng kami din ang napuputukan at napag-iinitan..." They fear that the traffic enforcers would get back in them, in a much worse consequence that they'll suffer and regret for the rest of their lives. (Mr. Chairman, your people are stabbing you at your back.. And it's not good...)

I don't know kung tanga o bobo ba magbasa yang mga traffic enforcers na yan, dahil may nakasulat naman sa bus na, " NO BADGE HONORED", ibig sabihin walang exempted sa pagbabayad ng bus fare.. These hypocritic predators are preying on these helpless preys. i mean, madalas nilang gawin yung pananamantala nila sa mga ordinary buses, yung mga walang aircon, laging bukas yung door at open kung sino man ang papasok at sasakay.. Well, that's why i've said that they take advantage of their power, but for me, their just peasants. Yung ginagawa nila sa mga ordinary buses eh 'di nila kayang gawin yun sa mga "big time" na company ng bus lines. Yung mga gumagamit ng aircon buses. Takot lang nila dun... But, i grieve for the small bus companies... For the traffic enforcers, shame on them, shame on them...

I don't know why they can't produce few pesos for the fare. It's not that expensive. They work almost everyday of the week, most of the time, in my point of view, they spend their time texting, sitting, chatting with fellow demons while on the road, take note, while on the road, meaning on a very large crowd with a very observative eyes, like me.

Well, i hope there'll be changes, maybe not today, not tommorow, not next week, next month or next year, but maybe someday. I hope the public would be aware of this problem. I hope there'll be action from the authorities out there to change this kind of issue. And my last words for the morons who are still lurking out there, "Burn in Hell".

Note: Sorry for my words. Maybe others who will read this might get offended. But that's what i really feel... Peace Out! Ciao!!!!!