Writer's Block (Syndrome)

This image says it all: I've been like this most of my writing career (career, eh?)

I haven't been here for more than a month (i guess), 'cause i've been in a rough patch in the month of March. I wasn't able to put a single blog entry last month because of different circumstances (no need to elaborate). So, it's nice to be back again in a place where i can fuse out and express all the feelings and emotions that's going through me right now.

I actually don't have any specific topic to write on to this time. I just thought that it would be fun to write something when you're having, a so-called Writer's Block. I'm not a professional writer, so, most of the time, i experience this "syndrome" (for me, it's a syndrome). I'm actually going through this phase right now. I have a lot of colorful and good ideas that's running through my mind, it's just that, my weakness is, to make a finish product out of it. Sometimes, i just scratch my head and say, " When will i ever learn?". As an aspiring writer, i cannot afford to be on this spot, all the time... Well, maybe all the time is too exaggerated. Ahhh, at least 90% at a time, i'm having that block phase. It's funny that at the first paragraph of this blog, i said it's that time again to write something and express the feelings i'm experiencing right now. Well, there's not so much feelings and emotions on this entry. Mainly, logic (i'm not sure again if i'm being logical about this one, hehehe..)

Having to go through this struggle to come up with a new piece to publish could lead into abandoning this new found hobby (although i've been doing this for years, i'm still a newbie when it comes into article or blog writing). But i know within me that i cannot just leave writing behind because of Writer's Block. It has been a part of me since day one of writing. It's just like my skills in drawing. Sometimes, i do experience having an artist's block and it drew a lot of comparisons on my Writer's Block. A lot of ideas, but always coming up short when trying to put it into a product. But i did not abandon my love for drawing, so the feeling is just the same towards writing, although to call myself a writer is a bit of an overstatement. I have to find ways to get over this hump that's been haunting me for quite some time now. I'm trying to explore new and creative ways to enhance my writing skills, doing my best to expand the limited capacity of this shallow mind of mine.

Well, i just noticed now that i was able to express one emotion while writing this blog: Frustration. I'm so frustrated in writing that it caughts me off-guard at times. At least that's all i'm experiencing when i'm going through this. Writer's Block, on a more serious kind, can cause depression, end of relationship, a sense of failure, physical illness, financial pressures and many more to mention (i guess). That's the scary part but i don't i'll be having one of those and i can't afford to have those right now. Frustration is enough.

I've read through all my past blog entries here to look for somethings that needs polishing of grammars and structures, but i decided not to (for now) 'cause i might ruin everything and have to start all over again. That's no fun at all. But, at least, i still find writing amusing and a good past time. I hope one day that i'll be more productive than what i am right now so i can write more meaningful blog posts.. But...

...even as i'm finishing writing this post, my Writer's Block actually blocks me right now from moving forward. Funny.